Jack Mullaly (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} medrawt) wrote,@ 2002-11-13 12:36:00 |
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No feelings at the moment except depression. Nothing at all makes a dent in the bleakness, the total lack of feeling. It's terrifying. I'm not sleeping well, it's hard to know what day it is when I'm awake all night and asleep all day half the time, I'm losing track of time. I'm seeing the doctor this arvo for all the good it'll do. There's nothing to do but wait it out, drugs are no use. My balcony scares me and gives me hope at the same time.
To those of you who've been reaching out to me lately, thanks. I'm sorry if I seem to be pushing you away at the moment or responding weirdly, it's a thing I do when I'm depressed. Sort of a vicious circle, I feel bad and everything I do or don't do makes me feel worse.
To those of you who've been reaching out to me lately, thanks. I'm sorry if I seem to be pushing you away at the moment or responding weirdly, it's a thing I do when I'm depressed. Sort of a vicious circle, I feel bad and everything I do or don't do makes me feel worse.
